Paula Rego, Secrets & Stories

Dame Paula Rego is one of the greatest figurative artists of the post war period.[10] Now in her ninth decade she is as productive as ever and her dark complex works have brought her international acclaim - with her own museum near Lisbon,[11] honorary doctorates from both Oxford and Cambridge universities,[12][13] a damehood from the queen,[14] countless books written about her work, and many ground breaking exhibitions. Her work not only connects on a visceral level it has also been a powerful tool for social change.

In contrast to her bold and expressive paintings, Rego is notoriously private and evasive. In the past she has tended to talk about the 'surface stories' of her pictures and the technicalities of painting but rarely connected the work directly to her life. Now in this intimate film by her son, Rego lays bare the powerful forces behind her work and the experiences which infuse her 'stories'. The result is a searingly honest and eye opening profile of an artist and a mother. The emotional power of the film is heightened by the relationship between film maker and subject.[15] It's a journey of discovery for Paula's son and the film captures moments of pure revelation. Yet the film also stands up as a comprehensive examination of her life and pictures.

Shortly after her eightieth birthday Rego started telling her son stories he'd never heard before, stories about her life which he felt gave him a unique insight into her work. So he asked her whether she'd make a film about her experiences, the struggles that turned her into one of our most important living artists, and to his surprise she agreed. Rego paints a vivd picture of her childhood growing up in Portugal, a stifling and repressive society dominated by men where women were "encouraged to do absolutely nothing."

Rego started to draw at the age of four and soon discovered that in her pictures she could do anything, act out her fantasies, kill her bullies, do things which as an intensely shy child, she felt unable to do in real life. She was encouraged by a father who introduced her to great storytellers such as Danté, Shakespeare, Verdi, and Walt Disney. Rego began to paint stories, finding ways of expressing complex ideas in a single visual image. Realising that his daughter had a unique talent, her father allowed her to go to the Slade School of Art in London. But the Slade taught a very stifling and academic method which Rego hated, so she hid at the back of the class and painted her own pictures. It was here that she met the painter Victor Willing, one of the school's biggest stars and soon fell in love despite him being married.

Life in London, alone, in her teens, a foreigner and woman competing in another male dominated and often misogynistic environment was tough for the shy Rego. But perhaps as a reaction to her repressive upbringing she gave herself completely to Victor Willing. She became pregnant several times and knew that if she had a baby Victor would leave her and she would have to return to Portugal to lead a disgraced life as a single mother and never become an artist. Desperate, she sought a back street abortion. This experience as a young 18 year old profoundly affected her.

In 1998, when Portugal held a referendum to allow abortion, not enough people voted - not enough Portuguese women in particular - so the referendum was ruled null and void and abortion remained illegal. Rego was so incensed by the cowardice and hypocrisy of women that she was moved to paint a series of pictures of back street abortions. These are among some of Rego's most powerful pictures - young schoolgirls recovering from makeshift operations by sometimes sadistic amateur abortionists. Rego recalls a cousin of hers who performed an abortion on his girlfriend and ended up killing her, so he dumped her in the sea and her bloated body was washed up on the beach. Everyone knew what had happened but no one did anything about it. "It was normal to treat women in this way", Paula says sadly.

Rego's abortion pictures were shown before the second referendum and, as President Jorge Sampaio explains, they made all the difference. This time women did vote, in droves, and abortion was legalised.

Returning to that difficult time in the 1950s, Rego tells how, when she became pregnant again at 19, she decided that this time she would keep the baby, whatever the cost. Sure enough Victor told her that he was going back to his wife. Fearful that she would be treated badly, patronised and looked down on, Paula settled back in Portugal preparing herself for a life as an outcast.

To her surprise, Victor wrote to her father and told him that he missed her. He was invited to live in Portugal and they were given Paula's grandparents house in the fishing village of Ericeira to live in. Paula recalls this as one of the happiest periods in her life. They married and had two more children, and her work exploded with renewed vibrancy and power.

But Victor continued seeing other women, and fearful that he might leave again, Paula started doing the same. Infused throughout this period is Paula's sense of dread, awkwardness and fear - themes which continuously appear and reappear in her work.

Paula Rego at Belas Artes exhibition Lisbon 1965

Rego confesses to having always suffered from depression. She recalls being afraid of everything as a child, a terror that continues even now. In 2006-7, when she was fighting a particularly bad spell of depression, she tried to 'draw her way out'. The result was 12 large pastels which she locked away, afraid that looking at them again might cause the depression to return. Nick asks his mother whether, now that 10 years have passed, she would show him on camera. She agrees and in a private moment of reflection Rego explains how the pictures illustrate her depression.

After the death of Rego's father in 1966, Victor took over his business, a specialist electronics factory. Despite being an artist with limited Portuguese and no experience of electrical engineering he mortgages the family home to invest in the company. Rego reflects on how she should have stopped him, and mourns at what followed - a brutal bankruptcy in which they lost everything.

To make matters worse, Victor was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, a gradual paralysing disease. The family moved to London, - penniless - and Rego sunk into one of her most debilitating periods of depression. Her work 'went downhill' as Victor's illness got worse and their relationship suffered. But she kept at it, everyday, working hard despite a disinterested art market.

The breakthrough didn't come until 1980 when Paula's work underwent a revolution. She started to use her personal life again, exploring her fantasies, fears and disappointments in her work, just as she had done as a child. These pictures - about Vic, her family, her lovers - drew the attention of art critics and dealers, and in 1986 Rego signed with Marlborough Fine Art, one of the world's leading modern art galleries. Ironically, her greatest success didn't come until Vic's death in 1988, a major retrospective in London's Serpentine Gallery, which cemented Rego as one of the most important women artists of her generation.

Looking back at this time, it feels almost as if Victor's death helped to release Rego's greater potential. She explored more complex and sophisticated themes, but even then, Victor remained at the heart of her work, in series such as the famous Dog Woman pictures in which she tried to come to terms with their difficult relationship, and The Crime of Father Amaro which brought back her formative experiences at the Slade. Feminist writers such as Germaine Greer and Marina Warner herald Rego as artist who has changed the role of women artists for ever.

Throughout, there is also a sense that Nick Willing is not only trying to rediscover Rego's life, better understand her pictures and tell her story, but also trying to get close to a mother who has often felt distant. For him the greatest revelation comes at the end, when he asks her what is it that, after all she has achieved, she's most proud of.

• Cas Willing Paula's Eldest Daughter
• Victoria Willing Paula's younger Daughter
• Ron Mueck Paula's Son-in-Law
• John Erle-Drax Marlborough Fine Art
• Fiona Bradley Author of 'Paula Rego' Tate Publishing
• Luís Amorim de Sousa Poet and Friend
• Lila Nunes Model and Assistant
• Dame Marina Warner
• Jorge Sampaio President of Portugal 1996–2006

Reception in the UK and Portugal was enthusiastic across the board. On 25 March Sarah Hughes' wrote in The Observer: "This astonishing, intimate Film is both an astute appraisal of artist Paula Rego's work and a fascinating portrait of the relationship between the artist and her son Nick Willing, who directs" [16] The Financial Times gave it 4 stars and Martin Hoyle wrote: "The result is frank, outspoken, moving, vigorously unregretful that begs for feature film treatment." [8] Rachel Ward writes in The Times that "This Film by her son Nick Willing is quite an eye-opener and a vivid portrait of art as salvation." and Rachel Campbell-Johnston also writes in The Times that: "Rego talks with stark frankness and puckish laughter about everything".[17] The Daily Telegraph's Lowenna Waters writes: " The film... involves some piercingly honest anecdotes from mother to son." [18] In The Guardian, Juliet Rix wrote "This deeply intimate film ranges across the life and art of the Portuguese-born artist, whose work is bracketed with Lucian Freud, Frank Auerbach and David Hockney."[19]

In Portugal, Time Out gave the film 4 Stars [20] as did Sábado magazine [21]

On 4 November 2017 Nick Willing received the Grierson Award for Best Arts Documentary.[22] and in March 2018 the film won the Royal Television Award for Best Arts Program [23]